Haven't written in here for a while but let me tell you that everything is going great :)

This morning at 6 Marques and I finally arrived home from Vegas. It was the longest trip home from Vegas I have ever had lol. It took us 8 hours to get home because of our naps we took at Primm and Bakers...haha. But Vegas was amazing!!! Definitely something I needed. I love this holiday season and I'm a little sad that it's coming to an end...

Now new years :)
2012 you will be mine

Hmmm...
It's never gonna be the same. I do what I do now cause of the many things I know. It still hurts like crazy but I'm putting on this smile and playing like everything is ok. I hate back tracking cause I knew I was going onto the right path. I don't know anymore...it sucks.

I guess he'll never know what has hurt me...
It's so hard to move on and just push this aside, but I guess this will have to do.

This day has been so tiring. I finished my speech this morning and did it this afternoon. Then it was the dance informals. Another fun experience but tiring, but I still managed to push myself to go to the gym after it. I just need to keep myself busy or else I'm gonna break down. Ugh I can't believe this right now, but I will respect the decision. I have so much emotion running through my little body, I know I'm gonna get stressed and get sick for finals. It keeps adding up...

I need to see the light at the end of the tunnel soon....

I'm done nagging and telling him what to do. Talk to all the girls you want. Tell them they're cute and that you miss them. Over it...but do not be mad when I start doing the same shit...

Not exactly the night I pictured...

I need to stop getting my hopes up. These past 2 nights i've waited and waited...and where does it get me? No where.
So no more...

So these past two nights is definitely not what I expected. I may be acting selfish but I'm only being human. I've been so use to spending so much time with him. That's probably the problem. Just another thing I need to get over...